HAPPY CHILDRENS' DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mum had meeting in church todae, so stayed back to join in the childrens' day celebrations.. lol so fun, doing kiddy dances and singing kiddy songs again. Haa! I miss being a kid! Asked dad for a childrens' day present but he dun wanna give.. hmpf. =p

Sunday's afternoons are not good for studying man.. wind blowing in from the open window envelopiong me with its sporific effect. Haha. KK GP is over.. fine. Econs tmr. Tmr is monday. means i gotta study on Sunday. Hmpf. Sunday's are set aside for rest! lol..

For the past 2 weeks i have been very withdrawn from God. Cos i felt that i keep coming back to him and then i fall away again.. so what's the point. So i didn't bother to pray anymore. I couldn't be bothered in church. Afterall, everytime also no sunday school. Last week Pastor called for altar call, everyone around me stood up on by one.. i was glued to the chair.. no, i was not gonna stand. Excuse me, i wasn't even on a talking relationship with God!? Pastor said the least you can do is pray for missions.. er.. no.... Also last week the message was to be reconciled with God. How can this be? So fast God is already calling me to be reconciled with him? I refused. Dun wan lah.. later i fail again.. wat's the point? Today. God was prompting me again to come home to him. It's childrens' day! How bout being called a child of God again eh? hmm.. but wat if i can't live up to the expectations of being called a child of God? God send me a sign! Something that i cannot doubt, melt my heart of stone and give me a heart of flesh! Den just as i said that, the song leader prayed that we won't keep asking for signs but we will see through the eyes of faith.
And then, we sang the song "open the eyes of my heart Lord!". Then we sat down and i realised today is the first sunday of the month! And we take the Lord's supper on every first sunday of the month! That's a practice to reaffirm the promise that we have made between God and Man. Cool.. it'd be quite bad if i wasn't reconciled with God before i took the Lord's supper. So what now? Well God's grace is sufficient for me, I hope i don't fail again, but if I do, I know God is ready to forgive. Yay!

Then, i got a question.. why do people get married?
After all the examples i've seen. Why bother to get tied down to someone you'll eventually get sick and tired of. What's the point of commiting to someone whom you'll eventually stop loving? Why not enjoy romantic relationships? No doubt they're ephemeral but i guess if u dun expect them to last, it won't hurt much anyway. What's the point of sticking to one life partner if what you're experiencing at the point when you 2 decided to get married, isn't gonna last forever? Why not stay young and fickle and have fun devoting love to different persons (one at a time!!)
Why not just keep dating and never start courting?
Oh well. I guess fairytale marriages don't come true..

Ai ya!! i'm still gonna get married in future! lol.. I'm gonna prove myself wrong , I'm gonna prove that a happy marriage IS POSSIBLE !!! I'm gonna be understanding, patient, caring and promise to love in sickness and in health.. blah blah blah! Haha....

I JUST ATTENDED MY COUSIN'S WEDDING LAH... =P