Sunday, September 17, 2006
I am one bored frog..
Bored of this predicament i'm caught in.. this unwillingness to move on.. yet i know the more i cling on to this hope that you've placed in my heart, the more i realise that hardly any sincerity accompanied those empty words meant to ease the pain. The more i realise that it's over. At the same time I want to move on, yet i have no where to go.. wandering aimlessly in this world of uncertainty. Afraid to embrace anything for fear of waking up once again to realise that it was only another good dream.
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..because of you i'll never stray too far from the sidewalk, because of you i've learnt to play on the safe side so i don't get hurt..' --Kelly Clarkson, Because of you
Bored of commiting and breaking my word, repenting and sinning once more, re-dedicating and then straying all too soon after.
Dreams reveal my subconcious. They give me the clues to the desires and hopes that i cling on to. How do I stop myself from thinking about stuff? Cos everytime I wake up, I wake up from a reminder of how I yearn for the impossible. Other nights, i wake up from a cruel reminder of the reality that i live in, such dreams depict the status quo of my life. I wake up from one nightmare into another. From one 'reality' that i can wake up from, into a reality that i am mercilessly forced to accept.
So unnatural, so obvious, so damn dao..
"..Hold on to patience, just watch for the signs, everything in it's time.."
--Corrine May, Everything in it's time
9:36 PM
